My best furrriend Matt sent me this when I was feeling really blah. It is one of the most beautiful things that anyone has ever said to me. I needed to immortalize it. Thanks Meowwt, lerve you gurrl.
"I think that little by little I'll be able to solve my problems and survive."
Frida Kahlo
"I paint self-portraits because I am so often alone, because I am the person I know best"
Frida Kahlo
Dear Susan,
After we got off the phone today i just wanted to start crying. Hearing you in such pain and sadness really has an effect on me. I feel like I should be up there helping you, comforting you, spending time with you. You are my best friend in the world; my soul mate, my air, and my food, i really could not survive without you.
You have such a strong impact on my life and It hurts hearing you hurt.
I dont want you to lose yourself. I want to remind you of what a beautiful, amazing, talented, funny, and brilliant person you are. Saying those things doesnt even begin to do justice.
Sometimes we lose ourselves because of our surroundings or relationships. Right now it seems you're going through a very confusing time.. it's like you're walking down this path that is made up of all these mean and selfish strangers and the fog is so thick and gray that you cant even see your own reflection.
There are things in this life that can bring us happiness. When we try to force things and people on ourselves we create volcanos. It's only a matter of time before they errupt and things get sticky.
Never find self worth in others. You are so independent and beautiful. You're not Atonement or Stepmom... you are Amelie. You are Margot at the Wedding, La Vie En Rose, Nanny McPhee, Ghostworld .... and would you want it any other way?
I think it's odd how some of the most beautiful people in the world dont realize it. I remember reading australian vogue about Natalie Imbruglia talking about how ugly and gross she felt or reading the Edie Sedgwick biography --- she was so INSECURE. "Always picking at her skin and trying to lose weight".
I can only tell you so many times how beautiful you are. Everyone around me always compliments you when they see your picture. People would kill to be you susan.
I really think you just need to start being selfish. START being SELFISH. FORGET what is around you. Use bottled water to clean the floors, be 10 minutes late to work because you needed to buy yourself a sunflower, rent movies you want to watch alone, find out what is going on at the museums and go by yourself with your ipod on (joni mitchell playing in the background).
GO to a jazz club by yourself. Dark dress. Red Lipstick.
Go to a poetry reading with a cup of Joe and a scarf around your neck.
Walk into Chanel like you are Coco.
Go grab a glass of champagne at the top of the Peninsula and watch the people walk by.
The only person that can make us happy is ourselves. We have to be selfish.
WHo is lisa? Who am I ? Who is Diana? There is no one else but you ... and if you find someone else who wants to share that with you, then maybe, just maybe you'll give them the pleasure.
I dont know why Im writing all of this. I hope youre not thinking im crazy. Im doing it because sometimes you need to water a flower.
I love you with all my heart. I wish you would start seeing what I see and what everyone else does. Stop hurting yourself by going out with fools with tattoos. Im so proud and grateful to be your friend. If someone isn't touched by your presence, dont give yourself away.
I love you .
Meowwtt.
"No one likes to have less than they had before. That's the nature of the human animal. "
Joni Mitchell
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